"We were meant to live for so much more..."

There comes a point in the life of every superhero, when they realise that they can't solve everyone's problems. I will never ever claim to be anyone's superhero, yet I have reached that point of shocking revelation. I've got to be honest, it sucks.

A people-pleaser from the moment I undoubtably understood friendship, I'm really struggling at the moment. Details, in this instance, do not matter. All that needs to be said is that people all over the world who are dear to me are hurting, and there is very little that i can really do to be of any help whatsoever. I could very easily turn this into a 'poor me' type moment, but it really isn't. This isn't about me at all. This is simply the despair of seeing pain and being unable to stop it.

As I walk down the main street of Dhaka, I realise that this sort of despair isn't limited to those who are well known to us. A middle-aged woman in a make-shift wheelchair, with withered legs approached Esther and I on a rickshaw the other day. A smile on her face, the pain in her eyes, the despair, yet joy, in her heart... What can I do? Sure, I can give all my Taka away, but that doesn't solve a thing...

Bangladesh, like everywhere else in the world, shows contrast between the worldly views of good and evil. Superman, I'm sure, couldn't solve everything here, just like I can't solve the hurt in my friend's lives... I will, however, do what I can and hope for the best, trusting that God is faithful and just and that "This too, shall pass".

If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up. ~ Ecclesiastes 4:10

Absolute peace

“There's nothing half so pleasant as coming home again.”
-Margaret Elizabeth Sangster


Amen!!! Speak to you soon... From Bangladesh :)
Kim xox

"In each piece of my life there’s been proof of regret and the things I can’t change I don’t want to forget"

It is not very often that I become attatched to a COMPOSERS work. Usually, I fall musically in love with the performer and don't think to look beyond the 'star' to see who's work is really on display, which is strange, because when it comes down to it, I see myself as much more of a composer than a performer. Put me on a stage and I'm mesmerised, I turn into someone else, but take away the anonymity, try and get me raw on the stage, there's nothing I could hate more... Though, that being said, I make NO great claims to the title of 'composer', just FYI.

I have fallen in love with Scott Alan's music of late. I first started this love affair when I was in 'Midlight', where the three lead girls battled it out in "I'm a star", Jess convinced me that "Never Neverland" was written for me and Rachael made me teary with "Home". Upon moving to Bangladesh, I decided that life would be far more enjoyable if I stepped up and finally joined the masses, downloading I-Tunes... Well, this has turned out to be an expensive venture, even if you only think about the costly additions to my theatre-related collections (Now REALLY, how could Scott Alan use artists like Tracie Thoms, Stephanie J. Block and Eden Espinosa and NOT get me hooked?)...

I urge you, check out some of Scott's stuff if you ever get the chance. If worst comes to worst, commandeer my laptop and listen to my collection of his stuff... Utter brilliance, honest! In particular, look up "I'm a Star" (Eden Espinosa), "Say Goodbye"(Katie Thompson), "Behind these walls" (Kerry Ellis) and "Never Neverland (Fly Away)" (Stephanie J. Block)... Do yourself a favor, fall in love with the composer who's stolen my heart!

All my love,
Kim xo

Mixed contempt...

Don't get me wrong, I love fireworks as much as the next person. However, living in a third world country, knowing the basic needs a human requires puts a certain perspective spin upon everything I see an experience. Want to know how much the Australian Government spent on the New Years fireworks? How does a measly $5 Million sound?!

Five Million dollars is ALOT of money, no matter where you're from. In Bangladesh, it is the equivalent of Thirty Million Taka. 30 million! That would fund most of Bangladesh for quite a while! And Sydney spent it in two twenty minute sessions of fireworks!! In my mind, that does not compute. And yet, in the Western culture I'm currently in, it would be rare for someone to bat an eye at these sort of financial figures being thrown around.

Justification?!

I can't say I've 'settled' into the western culture...