"When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquored long ago"
- Friedrich Nietzsche
It is undoubtably true in my life, that when I am tired, old thoughts, old ideas, old insecurities come pouring through the gaps in the boards that I had used to block up the doorway. Some of the boards are mere popsicle sticks layered haphahazardly together, each one a symbol of one method of moving on used over and over again. Some of them are thick, bold planks that are not easily shaken. But, just as a chain is only as strong as the weakest link, one insecurity is often enough to make the whole structure fall.
I absolutely love my job. I love the children I teach, and although I don't always enjoy the associated tasks, I generally am able to conquer them one by one, knowing that I am doing my best. This time of year, it is hard NOT to be exhausted and feeling weighed down by the myriad of things that are important, necessary, but time consuming.
This week has been one of those tough ones, when one after another, pieces of the sky seem to fall. Hours of sleep have been lost through heat, worry, sickness and circumstance. Unfortunately, I require sleep in order to operate and keep this little engine going. There are problems when the engine has more to do than it has legitimare and reasonable energy to do. And I am afraid that this has meant that as a teacher, a sister, a daughter, a niece, a grand-daughter, a colleague, a friend, a house-mate etc, I have failed miserably this week.
And you know what I could have done instead of letting this happen?
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
-Matthew 11:28
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Danger, Will Robbinson, Danger!! System overload!
"When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquored long ago"
- Friedrich Nietzsche
It is undoubtably true in my life, that when I am tired, old thoughts, old ideas, old insecurities come pouring through the gaps in the boards that I had used to block up the doorway. Some of the boards are mere popsicle sticks layered haphahazardly together, each one a symbol of one method of moving on used over and over again. Some of them are thick, bold planks that are not easily shaken. But, just as a chain is only as strong as the weakest link, one insecurity is often enough to make the whole structure fall.
I absolutely love my job. I love the children I teach, and although I don't always enjoy the associated tasks, I generally am able to conquer them one by one, knowing that I am doing my best. This time of year, it is hard NOT to be exhausted and feeling weighed down by the myriad of things that are important, necessary, but time consuming.
This week has been one of those tough ones, when one after another, pieces of the sky seem to fall. Hours of sleep have been lost through heat, worry, sickness and circumstance. Unfortunately, I require sleep in order to operate and keep this little engine going. There are problems when the engine has more to do than it has legitimare and reasonable energy to do. And I am afraid that this has meant that as a teacher, a sister, a daughter, a niece, a grand-daughter, a colleague, a friend, a house-mate etc, I have failed miserably this week.
And you know what I could have done instead of letting this happen?
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
-Matthew 11:28
- Friedrich Nietzsche
It is undoubtably true in my life, that when I am tired, old thoughts, old ideas, old insecurities come pouring through the gaps in the boards that I had used to block up the doorway. Some of the boards are mere popsicle sticks layered haphahazardly together, each one a symbol of one method of moving on used over and over again. Some of them are thick, bold planks that are not easily shaken. But, just as a chain is only as strong as the weakest link, one insecurity is often enough to make the whole structure fall.
I absolutely love my job. I love the children I teach, and although I don't always enjoy the associated tasks, I generally am able to conquer them one by one, knowing that I am doing my best. This time of year, it is hard NOT to be exhausted and feeling weighed down by the myriad of things that are important, necessary, but time consuming.
This week has been one of those tough ones, when one after another, pieces of the sky seem to fall. Hours of sleep have been lost through heat, worry, sickness and circumstance. Unfortunately, I require sleep in order to operate and keep this little engine going. There are problems when the engine has more to do than it has legitimare and reasonable energy to do. And I am afraid that this has meant that as a teacher, a sister, a daughter, a niece, a grand-daughter, a colleague, a friend, a house-mate etc, I have failed miserably this week.
And you know what I could have done instead of letting this happen?
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
-Matthew 11:28
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